January is always a time of reflection, a time to look back on the year and evaluate what went right for us and what went wrong. As I mentioned in my last post, 2016 was an amazing year for me personally, and in the last few months it was the time I really found myself again.
At the beginning of the year I decided I wanted to move, I saved like a mad woman and am now fortunate enough to say I own a little place to call home. It’s nothing fancy, but I love everything about it and haven’t felt this hygge about life for a while. I’m still in the process of filling and decorating but so far I absolutely love coming home in the evenings and spending time here.
I spent a lot of the year trying to build friendships with other internet people. Some of which I am happy to call friends and others I soon learnt were rather toxic. Without sounding like a massive miserable cow, this year has taught me that a lot of what you see online is fake, personalities can be manipulated and a lot of bloggers are so out for their own gain that they won’t even realize they’ve pissed you off in the process.
Not all though, there are some absolute gems out there.
But I think for this year, I’m going to focus on building bridges with my ‘real life’ friends who I have managed to alienate myself from. Spend time with people who will be around once the laptop has gone away and surround myself with the type of people that support and cherish what I have to offer.
This year has been littered with parts of my true self shining through, and I want to see more of that in 2017. I thought that having just one focus would allow me to be great at one thing, which is one of the reasons I deleted my blog. This year I’ve realized that I am never going to be that person who has that one ‘thing’ or skill. I want to embrace that, which is one of the reasons I’ve started up my blog again. At school I never had a particular thing or skill, I was good at Math’s and equally good at Design, I enjoyed Makeup but also loved mechanics.
We live in a world where everyone has a thing that they are good at, but a lot of us have more than one thing, a lot of us have two completely opposing skills, enjoy two completely different hobbies, and I want to embrace mine. I’m never going to be great at one thing and I’m okay with that because I know I get bored so easily. Life isn’t an Instagram feed, your theme is yourself and that can come in so many different colourways and compositions.